While answering to this has been coyly debated and size jokes are never-ending. Jokes abound because of answer that size does matter strikes fear and rattles self-confidence in men and women. While men seek larger women want smaller sizes, dress sizes. Women diet, self-critique, spend thousands on weight loss supplements while men order their size supplements online. Size does matter, but it is time we use a different measurement tool, not one based on inches but the love of self and happiness.
When my my size was ranged from 0 to 6, depending on my stress level. My times with stress, I controlled my environment with food, nourishment, strangely punishing my body for a lack of control. When my husband left me for another woman, My appetite declined and as I lost weight, the warped mindset of "If only I was thinner, I would be desirable" and "if only I were perfect, life would be perfect. "
As my body shrank, life was not becoming more perfect, it was spiraling into chaos. My the skeleton body weakly maneuvered through my appetite decreed ... and decreed. I really did not control trust myself, I had given up control of my life so many years ago. I really did not trust myself, I was always Mrs. XXX, or mom, and now I was to be ME. I measured my happiness with my dress size. I was a size zero, embarrassed by my bony stature and completely miserable.
We have finally had the opportunity to enjoy some of the fruits of our employers as we anticipated empty nesting. I guess once and the wing we were left alone with each other and the issues in our relationship in our relationship glared and buzzed angrily at us like an unwanted neon sign.
I was a perpetual yo-yo, feeling hopeful when her was a only woman he loved and then crushed the next day when he publicly partied with his girlfriend and our friends. Neither of them had any shame or expressed a conscience. In Feeling foolish, I isolated myself, and now I was shopping in the children & # 39; s section, something a 5 & # 39; 9 "woman should never do.
On November 28, 2014, at 7:19 pm, my epiphany occurred. As I folded napkins on a ladder in the warehouse of Williams Sonoma, I was texting with my ex, pleading with him to please leave the bar he was at with his girlfriend. He flatly told me, he could have what he wanted. I was started and begged until suddenly I realized I did not care at all. It was the weirdest feeling. One moment I was devastated and the next next I was filled with strength, clarity, and direction. I called a dear girl of mine and we went to dinner and I ate an entice cheeseburger!
I began to nurture. I am going to control my everything, remarkable things happened. First, love came into my life, but this love was different. It was a love for myself, self-respect and self-care. This was different, any time negative talk entered my mind, I reminded myself to be kind, to cut me a break.
This is an unconditional, based on trust and respect, without the game playing. Size happiness has given a new meaning to the expression Size Matters.
Like many women, I struggle still with weight, however, I also know the other side of size, and that weight does not equate to happiness. Finally, joy after years of quiet acquiescence and resentment I realize size matters and my size is happy!
